As Heaven is Wide(Lonetear)

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[atrb=background,http://i899.photobucket.com/albums/ac192/fireb4ashes/Paradox---MIDDLE.png] So. This was what it felt like. To be in love. So terriable and yet so wonderful at the same time. But it wasn't love love. It was just...friendship love. Yes, that's how you could describe it. Friendship love. On my end anyways. But on Mythril's end of it, it was more than that. And so I let him. And so here I was, scared and lonely. My heather eyes looked over the field, trying to find a place to hide. The old nightmares were back, and they terrified me more than ever. I shuddered with the memory of them. Temper seemed to haunting me every second, as if to make up for the days when she was gone. The result was that now I had to keep my emotions more in check than ever, or else Temper would leap in and take control, leaving me a haunted shadow. The things Temper odes when she has full use of my claws and teeth, too terrible to describe. Temper was my other half, the half that knew things. Awful things. I didn't like her at all. In fact, we so disliked each other, you could tell when one had control of the body. Me, the angel, the happy-go-lucky one. Temper, the devil, the torturer. And I couldn't let Mythril see that side of me. So off I ran, in the middle of the night, to find myself here. And now I was going to find myself a place to sleep, to hide my slim brown body. And to protect the lives of my pups. Oh, yes, Temper was very angry when she found out that I was going to have pups. So angry it shocked me, almost to the point that she could've taken control. But then I remembered Mythril, and knew I had to protect him from that side of myself. And I ran. Temper was still angry. Whoever was unlucky enough to find me in this state was going pay for it. If she won. Which hopefully she wouldn't. I just had to hope and pray that I could control myself. Remember Mythril......and the pups.

[Lonetear]

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[atrb=background,http://i839.photobucket.com/albums/zz315/xxlonetearxx/mireibg_3.jpg] Her slim black body flitted through shadows, paws seeming to never touch the ground as she silently scoured the land, brilliant blue orbs glowing in the dim light. Though she was weary of this constant travel her mind and sense were as sharp as ever, so she pushed herself on, not letting the feeling of despair crush her as she was rejected from one pack after another. They always saw some flaw in her, typically her tiny size, barely larger then some of the older pups she had seen. Her eyes glinted angrily, they all had underestimated her, judged her by her appearance alone, not taking into account her high level of intellect and the specialized skills she had honed. One day they would all regret it, when she finally found a pack to give her allegiance to, they would regret sending her away. With these thoughts she pushed herself, not allowing hunger or thirst to stop her, her intense drive to give some wolf her loyalties made her continue on without tiring. She would not become a tool for another, that much was certain, she had too much spirit for that. But she fit ill into the life of a loner, though she was used to traveling far to carry out her duties, not having a place to return to was grating at her. She had never known complete solitude, there was always someone to report to, someone to keep up to date on her whereabouts, and though she was never with the pack for much time it was still home. But now as she roamed this unfamiliar land she finally felt the sharp pangs of loneliness. A new scent met her on the winds and though it was unfamiliar to her it was distinctly lupine. Making the decision to pause her seemingly never ending journey she veered toward it, though still remaining cautious and observant in case her presence was unwanted. As the scent grew stronger she further analyzed it, wanting to know as much about this stranger as she could before actually coming into view. It was female, though it was different from those she had so far encountered in her young life time. It held an underlying flavor one could say, one she didn't know. This only made her use her skills more, easily slipping into the role of a shadow, making sure to remain unseen while she assessed this stranger. Word Count: 406

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[atrb=background,http://i899.photobucket.com/albums/ac192/fireb4ashes/Paradox---MIDDLE.png] I felt the presence of another, like goosebumps. Someone was watching me. I whirled around, my eyes flashing, fear and anger mingling, Temper and me. I breathed slowly in and out, for fear of losing the battle with her, and scanned the treeline. No one was there. I still couldn't shake the feeling of being watched, through. " Who's there?" I said, feeling foolish. After all, what if no one was there? Well, then the blame would be on me, for being so paraniod. Temper cirlced the mind-wall I put up in place, and growled. Oh, shut up, I wanted to say to her. Too bad she was in my head and not out in the real world. I lashed my tail out in anger. Arghhh. I turned back around, my eyes franticlly searching for a quick napping place. Hmm, maybe I could bent down a few of those tall grasses and form a cave around me? That would do for a quick nap. And then I could keep on running, far, far away from Mythril. I set to work, my eyes darting around every few minutes, still feeling the eyes on the back of my neck. This was out of control. I whirled arouind again to stare at the treeline, my eyes darting to and fro. Whoever made me feel so afraid is goingto pay for it. Temper let out a satisfied growl. Not you, I told her. Me! I was going to protect myself, and MY pups. Not you. Never you.

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[atrb=background,http://i839.photobucket.com/albums/zz315/xxlonetearxx/mireibg_3.jpg] Silently watching the black she-wolf prowled a little closer, the form of this strange female becoming more clear, details came to light as she observed. Though it was dark her eyes perceived this wolf's slim brown body. She could tell she was larger then herself but still slender. There was still something about this wolf though that seemed different, Mirei just couldn't place it. Fighting back a growl of frustration she crouched down lower, that tall grass completely hiding her when the shadows did not. Paranoid was the single word that came to mind to describe this wolf as she turned quickly, "Who's there?" Yes, clearly paranoid, it made Mirei want to laugh. If she didn't want to be seen then this wolf would not do so, no matter how many times she spun around, eyes trying to peer into the darkness around her, looking for the presence that she thought was there. Few seemed to understand this, that the shadows in which she hid herself so well gladly swallowed her form, allowing her to become one with them. As soon as the stranger's back was turned she crept closer, moving silently and with a predatory grace. Though others saw her small form as a detriment she saw it as a gift, she would love to see some loud behemoth of a wolf move with as much stealth and grace as she could. Once the she-wolf's attention was mostly focused on building some sort of make shift den for herself Mirei finally spoke, her ghostly voice dancing from the shadows to stroke this stranger in what most would think of as unpleasant all the while remaining hidden and out of sight. "Well what do we have here?"

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[atrb=background,http://i899.photobucket.com/albums/ac192/fireb4ashes/Paradox---MIDDLE.png] "Well what do we have here?" I spun around, my hackles rising. Temper was already trying to sneak in, but I stopped her, barely. I scanned the shadows again, but couldn't find anything. Did I just imagine the voice? I made up a plan to prove that I did hear the voice. I step forward, fear in my eyes. " I can see you, yah know?" I said, hoping to throw whoever this was off track. My tail curled self-protectingly around my stomach, an atomatic response. If this..person tried to attack me, they'll have to face a mother's fury. White-hot fury and fear for my loved ones. I turned my slim brown body around again, my heather eyes darting to and fro. Temper pleaded to get out, using my protectivess over my pups to her advantange. Too bad we've been together far to long for me to trust her. I built my shelter, the tall grass hiding me from other's eyes and giving me a soft bed. Giving the meadow one last wary glance, I disappeared inside it. I curled up, but couldn't go to sleep for fear that this unknown thing would leap out and attack me. Climbing out my nest, I sighed. There was no way that I could go to sleep now, even through it has been a very long night and day. Too bad. Now the nightmares couldn't returned. I felt like laughing, but surpressed it, once again watching the shadows for an attacker.

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[atrb=background,http://i839.photobucket.com/albums/zz315/xxlonetearxx/mireibg_3.jpg] She could feel the fear rolling off the creature that stood just a few yards from herself. Now that she was closer finer detail was made apparent. This wolf before her was a pretty thing, it was strong enough to show through her fear. And though she was clearly afraid she also had a determined air about her. Though she hated roaming at least for this one night things had proved to be interesting. "I can see you, yah know?" Ha, if this creature thought she could see Mirei she was mistaken. Just to prove it, though there was no one to prove it to save herself, she shifted her position, circling around so that she was facing the she-wolf's left. She remained silent, toying with her unknowing companion, letting her believe that she really was just making herself nervous, letting her think that there really was nothing out there hidden in the shadows. Flicking one black ear she watched the female turn and make her way into the little shelter she had made, only to get back up sooner then expected and return to the outside world, again watching her surroundings warily. Her tail swished once before she decided to make her presence known, not wanting to cause this creature to die of worry. Her eyes quickly glanced over the area, pinpointing just where she wanted to make her appearance from. Remaining hidden for just a moment longer she circled around behind the brown wolf before stepping out of the grass to stand directly behind her, her presence still unknown. "You know, it was a nice try but I know you didn't see me."

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[atrb=background,http://i899.photobucket.com/albums/ac192/fireb4ashes/Paradox---MIDDLE.png] "You know, it was a nice try but I know you didn't see me." I heard her voice behind me. There she was, right in the open. I smiled. Now I don't have to worry about being attacked. " Well, nice to see you out in the open. I'm Paradox and you are.....?" I said, leaving my sentance open. I took some time to look at this wolf. She was pure black, with nice pretty blue eyes. I narrowed my eyes. She looked like a shadow. Bubblely, or at least I hoped so, I said, " Well, if you don't mind I'm feeling a bit tired.......are you? You're welcome to sleep in my little shelter over there. " I nodded my head towards it. " And I can go find somewhere elseto sleep, " I hoped she would respond to my offer with a no. I was tired, far more than I was letting on. I let my eye slowly drift close, then jerked them open again. This is no time to sleep, I told myself. Not at all. But my brain didn't get that. Missing out on my sleep does that to me. I took a step towards the female. " Say....you haven't seen anybody with the name of Mythril around, have you?" I asked, and then did a totally strange thing. I fainted. Temper cheered. Weakly, I stopped her from getting control, before she could hurt the female. Then my mind went blank and black. When I came to a few minutes later, I was surprised to find that Temper hadn't done anything. I guess she was just as tired as me. Surprising. I stood up, my legs like jelly. " Sorry about that, " I mumbled, my face must have been slighty red. I glanced around, looking for a place to hide, but couldn't find any. Darn. Now I had to face the embarresment.

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[atrb=background,http://i839.photobucket.com/albums/zz315/xxlonetearxx/mireibg_3.jpg] She observed the brown female more carefully as she spun around, watching for any sign that she was going to attack, Mirei really wouldn't blame her if she did, after all she was the one sneaking up on the stranger, a wolf that already seemed edgy about something. But instead she received a smile, one that showed more the relief of this female then her welcome. "Well, nice to see you out in the open. I'm Paradox and you are.....?" The black she-wolf smiled momentarily, a rare occurrence and a brief one at that. Still it was a smile, something to reassure this female that she really meant no harm. Listening to this wolf's words she weighed her options, most of the time she didn't give out her name freely, but then again she rarely had to, her targets really didn't need to know who was killing them. However it would be rude not to give her the answer since she had already given her name to Mirei. Decisions, decisions, and not an easy one at that. Finally she decided that the risk toward her would be minimal. By the time the female ever said anything to another wolf, if she indeed did, Mirei would be long gone. Finally she spoke, although there seemed to be hardly a break between the question and the answer. "Few rarely see me out of the shadows and in the open. My name is Mirei." They both stood for a moment before Paradox spoke again. "Well, if you don't mind I'm feeling a bit tired.......are you? You're welcome to sleep in my little shelter over there. And I can go find somewhere else to sleep. " Already Mirei was shaking her head, she wasn't the type to take something another had worked hard on as her own, especially since there seemed to be something about this wolf that was different, something almost fragile about her that Mirei picked up though she looked strong and well able to defend herself. "No I'm fine, besides you worked on it so you should enjoy it." This wolf really did look tired, as if she was about ready to fall asleep on her paws. She wondered why this was but decided it really wasn't any of her business. "Say....you haven't seen anybody with the name of Mythril around, have you?" Mythril, Mythril, the name didn't ring any bells, and with a near perfect memory Mirei was sure she had not come across any wolf by that name, around here or anywhere else. Just as she was about to respond Paradox collapsed at her paws, slightly startling the black wolf before she stepped forward, carefully sniffing her, looking for any signs of illness. Just as suddenly as she had fainted, her eyes opened and she spoke. "Sorry about that." Paradox looked embarrassed, a rather strange reaction, or at least in Mirei's book it was. There really was nothing to be ashamed of, rather she should be more worried for her well being then her pride. "Are you sure you're okay, perhaps you should go lie down." Mirei was a little surprised by her words, it had been quite a while since her more caring side had come out, lately she had no reason to show any feeling toward another, much less care about their health.

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[atrb=background,http://i899.photobucket.com/albums/ac192/fireb4ashes/Paradox---MIDDLE.png] Dimly, I could still hear the wolf talking. My ears were roaring, a fact that annoyed me. I flicked them and focused in. "Few rarely see me out of the shadows and in the open. My name is Mirei."........"No I'm fine, besides you worked on it so you should enjoy it. Okay, whatever. All of that conversation occured while I was still faint, so I didn't bother flipping through that. Luckily Temper remembered it.For once she was useful. "Are you sure you're okay, perhaps you should go lie down." I shook my head. " No, I'll be fine. Soon enough anyways. Gotta keep them safe....." The last sentance could barely be heard. I swayed on my feet, my eyes barely held open. I stumbled towards my make-shift shelter. " Are you sure?" i asked. I was always the nice one, helpful to strangers and such. Until Temper murdered them in thier sleep. Yawn. Crawling into my make-shift shelter, I kicked a stick out of place. Not on purpose, but the damage was done. The whole shelter fell on my head. Dang it. I crawled out, my tail lashing. Stupid shelter. Now I had to find a new one, or sleep out in the open. Or....no, it was a foolish idea. That wolf, Mirei, wouldn't want to do it. No,no,no. But all the same, I had to ask. Turning my tired heather gaze on her, I spoke, " Er....I know I just met you and all, but you please, please keep an eye for me while I grab a quick nap?" I swayed even more, the ground bobbing and tipping. " Up all night.....running. Ugh, so dizzy, " You could barely hear anything I said. Without waiting for a reply, I fell at Mirei's feet, my eyes closed before I hit the ground. Time to sleep.......maybe forever or not?

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[atrb=background,http://i839.photobucket.com/albums/zz315/xxlonetearxx/mireibg_3.jpg] She shook her head slightly listening to Paradox's words. "No, I'll be fine. Soon enough anyways. Gotta keep them safe....." A streak of stubbornness was pulling through despite her fainting spell. But keep who safe, that was what Mirei wanted to know. Her blue orbs watched the she-wolf carefully, looking for any sign of faltering, for whatever reason she was drawn to this wolf, feeling the need to help her. It was a strange feeling really, one she had rarely encountered and only with one wolf from her year, in the pack she came from before coming here, and he had betrayed her in the end. Recognition of words broke through her thoughts, Paradox was still offering her shelter to her. Giving her a little nudge toward it the black wolf declined silently. But as they fae entered the shelter a stick was knocked out of place and the entire thing collapsed, leaving the female to pull herself out from beneath the debris. Darting forward she carefully looked over the brown wolf, eyes searching for wounds, nose sniffing for blood. Luckily there was nothing to be found. Embarrassment was easily read on the wolf's face as well as a hesitancy, eyes flickering back and forth as though arguing with herself. "Er....I know I just met you and all, but you please, please keep an eye for me while I grab a quick nap? Up all night.....running. Ugh, so dizzy." Before Mirei could even respond the female had collapsed at her feet, eyes already closed. "Sleep, I will keep you safe." Her words were a whisper, a nearly silent promise. Moving closer to Paradox she curled next to her, pressing against her to keep her warm against the chilly night. Blue eyes watched their surroundings carefully, ears fully pricked and swiveling to catch any noise. She wasn't sure what had gotten into her, but this openness was different, a small part of her was kind and caring, though it was rarely seen, but some deep instinct was driving the black wolf to behave differently then normal. And she wasn't sure what to do about it.