Alue (Fenrir)

[~Madey~]

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[atrb=background,http://i899.photobucket.com/albums/ac192/fireb4ashes/Alue---MIDDLE.png] My auds also flickered in the direction of the rustling of the bush. Though right when he headed towards it I rose my dome in the air and smelt the air, a warm chuckle came from my throat as I knew it was a bird. I lowered my haunches to the ground, tail curled my hip and rested on my hind paw. Curious on how this would play out, though I didn't expect him to be frightened by it, it was only a bird, and he was most likely used to things popping out at him. Auds pricked and orbs focused all on him and the bush. Then the bird popped out, and he tumbled onto his back. A bust of laughter came from my own maw, which was also different. I hadn't laughed like that in over a year. It felt good to laugh again, it truely did. Though he surprised me I couldn't stop laughing, and aparently neither could he. In response I padded up to him while he was on the ground and when he was about to get up, I pushed him back down with my paw in a plauful way. A playful smile across my maw, tail swaying in the air calmly when I padded a little ways away from him. "I am assuiming so. Though you are lucky wolves don't walk up to ya and say 'Boogy'" She chuckled at the meer thought of it. When he rose my orbs caught the site of his scars. I was going to ask, but the thought of going back to our pasts didn't sound good to me at the moment. I smirked at him and waited for him to ready himself to walk again. When he rose I rose myself from my sitting posision. Tail calm behind me as I padded to him and was ready to walk again. He was handsome, and he looked like a charmer, his scent masculin and giving off that musky scent, one I could easily remember. Bad guys weren't my main thing to look for, I actualy didn't care about what he did. I was mostly thinking about personality, and aparently I had a bad rep with brutes, since the ones I mostly seem to fall for, always seem to end up dead or cheating on me. His lyrics filled my auds again, and in reaction my auds flickered in his direction, I turned my dome towards him. "I am in agreement. Though walking helps clear ones over crouded head." I added with a nod of my dome. Then added. "At least for me anyway." I said with shrug of my shoulders. I didn't really know how I was acting, it was fun to talk and mess around a bit though, something i hadn't done in a very long time.

[xFenris.Fenrirx]

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[atrb=background,http://i899.photobucket.com/albums/ac192/fireb4ashes/Fenris---MIDLE.png] He smirked over at her and pushed her playfully with his shoulder just to knock her off balance slightly. But not enough to make her fall. It was strange being able to relax around someone. It had been far too long for him. Though the years seemed to pass by him like mere moments in his mind. "Let us just keep this little blunder between you and me. I do not want my reputation to be ruined by such a thing. How can I possibly strike fear in to the hearts of others if they knew something like this?" he said with a playful gruff growl towards her. As they continued to walk his eyes lifted towards the night sky. It was crystal clear that night. All the stars in the Heavens were shining and so was the moon. The milky way could easily been seen. Though he was quite a horrifying wolf he knew that there could be beauty in the world if actually looked for. Sometimes it seemed impossible to find. But when his children were born he realized true happiness and beauty. He had always hoped that they would be nothing like him when they grew older but that would be a fact that he would never know. "Tis a beautiful night for a walk, m'lady. Not a threatening cloud in the sky," he pointed out looking from the sky back to her. For no reason reason an actual smile drifted onto his features. It was almost hard to do. As if the muscles in his face did not know how to react to this. He closed his eyes for a moment trying to remember the last time that he felt this relaxed to be around someone. He almost could not recall a time or place. But there had to be one some where lost in his thoughts. "I think that it was fate that we met here tonight. After all something must have drawn us together at this spot. It is a rare thing in deed that I find someone that actually can carry on a conversation with," he pointed out. It was even more of a rare thing to come across a radiant maiden that could do such a thing. But he would not say that out loud. It was far too soon for him to be saying those things. Even to him it was far too soon to be thinking those things. He was afraid to get attached again. It was too soon to tell if he would get attached to this femme in a romantic way but the thought crossed his mind and shot a small bullet of fear in his heart. He did not know what to do if that came up. The thought of losing someone he could be close to might kill him. There was already such a grave wound from the last time he had to bury those he cared about. How could he go through something like that again? And what would those emotions do to him? He finally had his brain balanced again. The insane side balanced with the intelligent side which was hard enough to do in the first place. OCC:: Kinda short... Damn Caffine!!!

[~Madey~]

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[atrb=background,http://i899.photobucket.com/albums/ac192/fireb4ashes/Alue---MIDDLE.png] When his shoulder pushed me a bit, I stumbled, but caught my footing before I fell. A low chuckle escaped my maw once again, this was probably the most I had chuckled or laughed in a long time, even when Souless and the pups were alive I havn't laughed or chuckled as much. it was a sad thing, but things happen and there is nothing I could do about it, like there was nothing I could do about the ones I cared for, I knew one day I would be able to talk about my past without a really painful click in my mind, and I hoped for that day. He spoke and I listened, another laugh escaped my maw. "You sure? it could be a hit. The Boogy man scared of little bird." ALue chuckled then shook her dome. "No words will escape my maw." I said with a smile. Silence then swallowed us as he continued walking in peace, it was a beautiful night, I glaced at the moon and stars, their twinkles reflected in my golden green orbs, but I turned my focus to the trees and the rest of the area. The shadows of the trees would have startled some faes, but it was just radiant in my orbs, mysterious in my thoughts. Then he spoke up again. "It is." I agreed with him looking at the sky once again, though I wasn't paying attentin to my feet. A rock came close and I tripped. Though I didn't hit the ground A huff came out of my maw. I stopped, looked down at my paw and snickered. But continued walking. "Stupid rock." I mummbled under my breath. I thought of his words as he spoke them, it was a weird coincidance, but I shrugged. "Things have a weird way of working out." I said softly, almost in a whisper. I didn't know why I spoke low, but the thoughts came to my head again, his words were true, it was weird that we met at the same time, and he did not annoy me, he had almost the same pain as I had, I say almost for no one really have the same pain. It was different, but I was curious on where it would lead, but also frightened. I came to these lands, not to fall in love, but to get away. I wanted nothing to do with a brute, nothing at all. Faes for some reason have a hate towards me, and I figured that was because some of their mates flited with me, and I gave them the sideways glance. After my two loves, they had both ended the worst way possible, before Torro I was about to be with a brute named Nova, for he loved me deerly and I had started to have those feelings for him as well, he had helped me along when no one else would. But then I fell in Torro's trap once again, and broke Nova in the same doing, that would be another thing I would want to take back, but getting close to another made my heart stop. I don't even think I have a heart anymore, I think I am just living.

[xFenris.Fenrirx]

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[atrb=background,http://i899.photobucket.com/albums/ac192/fireb4ashes/Fenris---MIDLE.png] A laugh of embarrassment escaped his maw when she replied. He could not help it. "Oh yes... I seem them trembling in fear of me now," he replied rubbing his shoulder against her again as they walked. He felt so calm around her. Calmness. Another emotion that he had long suppressed from his mind. Strange feeling again creeping through his body. He really was enjoying this. Good conversation and good company. How could he ask for a better night? How he felt like he had wasted his time coming to these lands before but now he did not feel that at all. It was a nice change. As the silence fell between them, it did not feel awkward as sometimes that could become. His ears darted over to her when her heard her hit the rock. He felt bad but he could not help but laugh again. "Look at us. Birds are my enemies it seems and rocks are going to be your down fall," he said stopping. He leaned his maw down and picked up the rock that assaulted her paw. Turning his head, he whipped the rock into the woods. "Fear not m'lady I have come to save the day!" he finished puffing out his chest to make himself look bigger. He could not hold the pose long and let out the breath of air that he had been holding in one big huff. There was a small tension coursing through his body without his control. How could he even think about caring for another? After everything that he had been through, after everything that he had done in his past. How could he? He felt undeserving of such feeling. The fear also crept into the back of his skull remembering what had happened in the past. How he failed to protect those that he loved the most. He vowed right then and there to himself that he would not let such a tragedy happen again. If the off chance something did spark between him and Alue he would give his life to protect hers. No matter what. "Alue... I must say... You are a very rare radiant maiden," he pointed out but did not look at her when he spoke. He just continued to walk next to her. It was true. So many pompous femmes had flaunted their scent all over and she did not. He respected that about her. It was an admirable trait she seemed to posses. "I am sorry if that was too bold..." he added letting his head sink a little and his tone dropped. It was a stupid habit of his to speak his mind. The blackened brute knew many things and how to handle just about every situation that came across his path. This though this whole caring and being nice was such a new thing to him. He felt like a whelp that was lost. So he had no real control over what he said when he felt it.

[~Madey~]

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[atrb=background,http://i899.photobucket.com/albums/ac192/fireb4ashes/Alue---MIDDLE.png] His lyrics met my auds and I chuckled in amusment. "Or trembling in laughter." I said rolling my shoulders into a shrug, still in a joking tone. I didn't think I could make jokes, laugh, or smile in a very long time. I actually thought I rid myself of it all when I saw the episonde of which made me lose my heart, but when Fenrir was speaking, it felt as if I had my heart back. It was a good yet weird feeling, since I hadn't felt it in a very long time. I knew I most likely wouldn't speak of it, but i was thinking it would be good to tell him that I thank him. A gust of wind escaped my maw. "Fenrir, I want to thank you, for making me laugh and smile again. it does feel rather nice, though weird at the same time." I admitted, a warm smirk across my maw, I wasn't smiling or laughing all the time, but those times i were it did make my evening. When I had recovered from my fall, he was laughing. I scowled at him jokingly, then laughed myself a bit. When he picked up the rock I tilted my dome faintly to the side, curious on what he was planing to do with it. When he tossed it, it was just even more confusing, this is voice rang. I chuckled and nodded. "Thank you, sir. I thought I would die if it have touched me again." I said in a dramatic tone, then another chuckle escaped my maw. When he puffed out his chest I laughed and pawed at it then continued walking. I didn't know what was going on, but there was a different feeling in the air around us. It was kind of weird and different to me, I didn't know wheather to run or tuff it up and have what ever happen happen. I knew that if things turned out the way I feared then I would also give my life to save his. But, that was the thing and most likely end up as a problem. We had both faced our families deaths, and we both would not have that happen again, so if things did end up turning of we both start haveing feeling for eachother, then I would most likely say, we fight together. That way, if one dies, the other won't be far behind. Or at least we would know we did the best we could have done. His lyrics threw my thoughts away, as my auds pricked in his direction, i listened to what he would have to say. Surprise caught my orbs. I didn't expect that out of the brute, well not yet anyway. Fenrir was different, he spoke his mind and I respected and understood that, but I didn't know how to react. I just didn't know, then he spoke again and I shook my dome. "No need to apologize, you speak your mind." I said with a grin. "And thank you." I added with a smirk as I studied him then turned my attention to my paws. "Your different yourself." I said slowly, but did not raise my dome to look at him. It was a compliment to my standerds, and maybe even meaning something else, but i didn't know what i was saying till it was out of my mouth. OOC - I liked the teal coloring better haha.

[xFenris.Fenrirx]

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[atrb=background,http://i899.photobucket.com/albums/ac192/fireb4ashes/Fenris---MIDLE.png] What was this he feeling? He could not completely figure it out. For him these feelings were not something that he was taught to recognize them in his youth. After all, his childhood really was never a childhood. It was just another passing phase in his life that if you blinked you would have missed it. It was annoying really to not be able to understand these types of things. A twinge danced through his mind. He figured it out. Nervous. He was nervous. This femme made him feel like that. Normally he was the one leading things knowing that it was only a game being played but now he was playing no game and hoped that she was not either. A smile graced his lips as she replied to his comment. To him that was a compliment though some others might take it completely differently. He never fit into the social normality that seemed to fall on wolves. He did not long for acceptance nor the need to be in a pack. He dipped his maw to her. "Thank you Alue. I am happy you think so. I would hate for you to consider me one of those pesky brutes that flaunted around you," he replied making light of the situation just so things would not grow too serious again. He wanted things to continue down the path that they were heading. Maybe he would be more willing for it when the time came but he would be willing to embrace it if fate had that in store for them. She was a true beautiful femme. Both inside and out. She could hold her own and he admired that fact about her. Yet there was something deeper than that. She was much like him on many things. Perhaps not the clinically insane side that sometimes got the better of him but he doubted that she would ever have to experience such a thing. At least he hoped. The only time he could see that happening would be if someone tried to hurt her or anything that their future could bring. Though when that point is reached he could not control himself even if he wanted to. His eyes looked down at the ground to hide the worry in his gaze. "My dear Alue... Do you fear me?" he questioned randomly as he still thought about that monster that lived buried inside of him. "I know you do not know me completely well... But those that typically come around me learn to fear me rather quickly..." he sighed and then looked up at her. The chances of him going off were slim to none but there was still that chance. That in itself was too much. "Would you still want to get to know me if you knew of the monster I really was? Or could be?" he fully expected her to want to leave but this had to be brought out into the open. Sooner rather than later.

[~Madey~]

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[atrb=background,http://i899.photobucket.com/albums/ac192/fireb4ashes/Alue---MIDDLE.png] I studoed his features once again, then a noise came from a tree. Auds pinned as I turned my dome towards the direction of it. Orbs narrowed, though nothing escaped my maw. I didn't know what it was, it was most likely an owl, perching and ready for its food. When a saw the wings of it I rolled my orbs that the stars still reflected in and kept walking, I also hoped this wasn't a game, I have been played many times and I was damn tired of it. Though it didn't feel as if i was being plaid...But, yet again neither did the other ones. A low chuckle came from my throat, his lyrics seemed to lightened....but, that might of just been me. "I definitly do not think of you of that level, I respect your personality." I said truthfully. Brutes did annoy me a lot with their flirting. They don't even know me and they start flirting with me, then they say something about mates or pups. I shook my dome. "Pups they are." I said with another shake of my dome, auds pinned, but I shook the feeling away. Ok, i should have apologized to him about it, but I figured he would know it frustrated me about those stupid brutes. My orbs drifted to him once again, then went back to my paws. He was different. A wolf who had a personality and nothing else on his mind. I didn't understand what I was feeling at first, but now I knew. This was going to be difficult, not in his way, I didn't know if he felt the same and it was way to early for me to start saying things, I didn't know why it had to happen so fast. Was this a trick fate had decided to fall upon me, get me all happy again then crush it make me worse then I had been? I shook my dome, I would take my time with this unless he says something, though I hope it isn't a trick for anyone. Then his lyrics caught me off gaurd. I haulted in my tracks and faced him, confusion in my orbs. "Why would I fear you?" I asked him tilting my dome to the side. "I have a pretty good idea of what you are capable of. Fear isn't the catagory I would put you in." I said truthfully with a smile, though i knew I said to much. Why did i always have so say whats on my mind? I shook my dome in frustration, though his my orbs from him being able to see the emotion in them.

[xFenris.Fenrirx]

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[atrb=background,http://i899.photobucket.com/albums/ac192/fireb4ashes/Fenris---MIDLE.png] A small faint sigh escaped the ashen maw. He listened to Alue reply to him about not being afraid of him. She should though. Everyone should. Even if he was trying to protect her from himself. He turned at looked up into her beautiful orbs once more. "You see me how I am now. Respectful Fenris Fenrir. Yes it is obvious that I am a killer and do not feel ashamed of what I have done in my past," he started and then drew in a deep breath to continue. "Long ago, when my mother sent my brother to end me something clicked. An uncontrollable insanity took over my body. I was no longer myself..." he pointed out almost ashamed of the horrors that his body secretly housed. His gaze dropped before he continued. "If something happened to you while I was around... I fear that it would set me off. The thought of you being harmed would drive me to that point. Yes, at a point and time it could be a good thing. But if I cannot control it I do not know friend from foe at that point," he stated closing his eyes. The way he clenched them tightly closed looked as though it pained him to even think about such a thing. Silence fell again. It was out there. She would leave. Find someone that was more "level headed" as she should. Why would she risk anything such as her life to be around a soulless beast such as himself? Fenrir feared that he could truly start caring about Alue. She was simply amazing in every way. She was everything that the world seemed to have forgotten about. These days the femmes groomed themselves and stayed clear of fighting to not tarnish their supposedly Goddess appeal. He had no interest in such a foolish thing. Nor had he an interest in falling in love for no reason. To give himself to another almost, dare he say, scared him. "Let me be straight and forward with you... I do not want to lose you, Alue. The world would be a much colder place without you in it," he blurted out and then quickly bit his tongue. This time he bit so quickly and so hard that he drew blood. The taste of his own iron bubbled up into his mouth and he coughed for a short moment before he turned to spit out the taste. "If this is not the category that you would put me in... Then where would you place me?" he questioned purely out of curiosity. Then thoughts ran through his head again. He knew the small scent that she gave off. She belonged to a pack land. Somewhere that he did not feel he belonged. How could a pack lander want a loner such as himself. A look a sadness took over his gaze before he could fight it back. It only lasted for a moment and then disappeared again. Perhaps he was putting himself too far out there.

[~Madey~]

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[atrb=background,http://i899.photobucket.com/albums/ac192/fireb4ashes/Alue---MIDDLE.png] When he spoke, it took me away, I knew what he was saying. And he hasn't been the first to explain this to me, I didn't need to hear it, though I would listen anyway, but this talk reminded me of my ex mate, Torro. I took a deep breath. When he finsihed I began. "Fenrir, I respect how you are worried about the future, present, and what not. I also understand what you are saying, I knew a wolf, named Torro. Who had the same thing, he learned though at times he did get me." I took a breath and shook my dome. When I rose my head back towards him I studied his orbs. "I guess. I am trying to say is that,No need to fear about something that we no one can really control, and leave it to what is to happen. I am sure you woudln't attack me, and if you did I could dodge it and tkae care of it when the timei comes." I smiled at him as I nudged his cheek to brighten him up, then looked back down at my paws as I kept walking, when I said when a wolf cares about another to protect them, I didn't mean as mates, I meant as friends or mates or whatever. I then grew a bit curious if he understood how I was bringing it out, I sucked at explaining myself. When silent fell between us, I thought everything over. I wasn't one to run, I was the kind to take things head on and deal with them as they came, maybe that was why bad always seemed to happen to me, because even if I was scared I wouldn't admit it or show it. Everyone saw me as a heartless bitch. Which I was called a lot, faes chalenged me all the time because they were jelouse of a life I wouldn't have chosen if I had the choice, when it comes to risking my life, ever since everything in my heart died, a part of myself did as well, and I had been looking for death, some times I still want it, though suicide will never take my breath, nor would i ever let another paheric wolf get away with it, If i was going to die I was going to die in a worthy fight, near someone I love, or alone. But, death will take me one day, and when that day comes. so far, I welcome it with opened paws. His lyrics wrapped around me once again, my auds flickered towards him, though my dome didn't raise, when he finished I was speechless, I didn't know what to say. I couldn't even think of a response. When he added on at the end I gave a unexpected chukle. My tail once again swaying calmly behind me as I thought of an answer, or how I would come up with one. A gust of air escaped my maw. "I would have to agree, Fenrir. Though it bring horrid memories, you are one i know i can trust, and one I will protect." I shook my dome, I didn't know if he figured it out, but i only protect that is worth protecting or has value or meaning in my heart or life for that matter. Then I remembered his second comment. "Catagories all have different meanings, my friend. For since I am disorganized, you would be set somewhere close. Shalll I say." I said with a smirk, as I loked up at him, golden green orbs sparked in laughter at my little joke, yet a joke with meaning and a purpose.

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[atrb=background,http://i899.photobucket.com/albums/ac192/fireb4ashes/Fenris---MIDLE.png] Ears laid back against his ashen skull once more almost in a weak way. He listened to his companion speak in reply to what he had just said. In his mind he thought she would just say good bye and leave it at that. Though he had hoped that it would be the complete opposite. As her lyrics filled his audits, slowly they perked back up until they were standing tall once more. She was not afraid of him. This was all so strange to him. How could that not be a terrifying thought? Alue was much stronger of a wolf than he first thought. More and more he was growing to be impressed with her as their conversation drew on. "The thought of harming you for no provoked reason bothers me let's just say. You are someone I cannot see being angry with to the point of attacking and I do not wish to lose that control I have," he said in almost a whisper. Then a faint smile traced his lips. "Though I am sure you would be fine at getting me back under control..."] he said honestly. She spoke more to his comments and his ears drooped again for the oddest of reasons. He was almost disappointed that she thought of him as a close friend. True, the friendships that he had shared in the past were very strong. There was nothing wrong with them. Perhaps he was the only one that was starting to wonder about other things. Maybe it was just too soon and he was basing things off a fledgelings hope. Instinctively, he rolled his shoulders into a shrug though it was caused by his own thoughts and nothing that she had said. His gaze lifted to her and he stared into her pools deeply. "Maybe this is just my thought... But I think... I think that we can teach each other a lot. Help each other," he said in a deep tone. He really had wanted to add that perhaps they would grow into something more. A family. He just could not bring himself to say such things if there was nothing on the other side. He moved a small rock in the path under his paw. Almost rolling it around between his toes. Was he nervous? How could he know? Emotions were still so new to him that he did not know how to name them correctly. Then his gaze once more drifted back up to the beautiful femme that stood before him. A mischievous look graced his features. He lowered himself and his rump went into the air. Causally his tail swayed behind him but then it stood erect. His front talons dug into the soft earth. Without a word he pulled back and then jumped at her. Knocking her to the ground, but not too roughly. As though they were two whelps playing. He stood on top of her for a moment. "Though you might need to fear me... You never known when I might attack," he said in a jokingly tough voice. There was a smirk still set on his dark features as he peered into her eyes.